Since the first day of training, the Leap of Faith task stood out in my mind as I knew I wanted to do it, even though I knew I would be petrified! So when the opportunity finally came on Thursday, the nerves began to set in!
I was thankful to have time with my students in the morning doing other activities, while fellow Mentor Graham tackled the Leap of Faith with his team first, that way I had time to try and build up my confidence!!
When our time finally came, we walked up to the dreaded post where I had a chance to catch up with Graham. I was soooo pleased to hear that he had completed it even though he was worried about it too, and was even more pleased to see he had survived, (totally irrational – I know!!!)
During the morning some of the students and I had already agreed that if they jumped, then I would too, but as they each completed it one by one, my sickness and fear set in more and more and I had no idea how I was going to do it!! So my time came and my whole body was shaking and I felt even more sick, strapped in the harness my walk up the post began.
I tried so hard to contain myself, but halfway up the post I couldn’t help but stop to give me time to compose myself. As I was clinging to the post, all of the students were being so encouraging, I had to carry on and try to get to the top!! Once I finally reached it, all I had to do was climb on top of the post, but fear had completely set in and I couldn’t move a muscle, apart from my mouth of course – I screamed and shouted so loudly, I just couldn’t contain how scared I was!!
The students and instructor were so good, shouting that I could do it and giving me guidance on where to put my feet, I knew I couldn’t give up. It took every ounce of courage in my body to ignore how petrified I was, and step up onto the top. I then just had to jump and try to catch onto the trapeze!!
I can’t remember ever feeling sooooo vunerable but had to carry on, I took one finally breath and jumped – I managed to reach and cling onto the trapeze, but slipped pretty much straightaway and fell down into the safety of the harness!! Once I was brought down to the ground, I couldn’t believe that I done it – I overcame all of that fear and jumped!!
It took five minutes for me to get from the top to actually jumping (the longest five minutes of my life!!) - It just goes to show that you can do anything you put your mind to!!!